Axel has decided to stop fighting his cancer. What is left is merely pain management. It would seem that necrosis of the tumor caused such a painful inflammatory reaction, pressing on nerves and a vital artery, that the fight was no longer worth it to him. If the remainder of his days were to consist of such insults they would be a waste of those precious days. His decision.
We don’t know how long he has.
Of course a miracle isn’t impossible. Perhaps his own immune system will save him. I’m the only one with this faint spark of hope. Of course I keep giving him his supplements and menu items specifically for immune system support. I don’t know what I am going to do without him.
Even writing, reading, and commenting has lost its luster.
I’m still here and who knows? Maybe I’ll get my money back from my international con artist ex-husband’s bank. Maybe I’ll find something else to spark a bit of passion. Maybe I’ll find yet another one-true-love. Maybe I’ll find a hobby, a roommate, a pet. Maybe I’ll get myself “a job”.
At the moment, none of those options appeal.
caprizchka 
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I am sorry. Hope to hear from you again someday. Good luck to both of you.
I’m sorry, there’s nothing else to say.
Epistemol is right. I am sure that everyone who knows you feels the same way.
I am truly sorry.
I am very sorry to hear. Let’s keep hoping for that miracle.
Embrace your hardships, they teach you lessons you’re not yet aware you’ll need in the future.
Embrace your pain, it strengthens your resolve.
Embrace death, it’s the necessary and natural destination of life.
Embrace yourself, you’re all the power you’ll ever have or need.
Darkness into light, light into darkness, the natural rhythm of Mother Earth. Feel the beat of her majestic melody and keep dancing.
Truth=Beauty=Love
Condolences.
I’m really sorry.
Very sad. I wish you the best.