Respect For One’s Elders

It wasn’t until I returned to the U.S. from Venezuela in 2011 that socializing with people my own age and younger didn’t seem strange to me. Prior to that, with my husband nearly two decades older than I was, and most of my significant relationships in that ballpark, it was not unusual for me to be the youngest person in the room. I’ve spent a lot of time around older people and I hadn’t had a problem being around them until recently, living in a White middle class retirement community, somewhat by accident.

Generally, speaking, in both sorts of groups, my life experiences are beyond the realm of understanding and therefore a difficult subject for small talk.

My two sets of grandparents were part of the most privileged generation of grandparents ever with middle class success, savings, pensions, lofty leisure time, vacations, and extended lifespan. My parents on the other hand largely struggled until my mother completed her masters and delved into her career, at which point all the benefits of being a member of one of the most privileged and coddled workforces (the NEA) kicked in.

While growing up, I was expected to be deferential to all of my elders pro forma as well as a means of maintaining the image that we were middle class, even if I personally was a class below, as well as sort of a privileged intelligentsia. I was essentially the poor relation until I left and made something out of myself, but at the least I could be entertaining. Now I am merely expected to listen quietly while I get to be the beneficiary of stories which largely have no relevance to my life. Of course, I do, but, it’s not something I particularly enjoy. I certainly do not owe this class of people anything but pro forma respect and polite feigned interest doesn’t cost me anything.

It was fully expected by my family that I would not only make something of myself professionally but would marry professionally such as to make up for the slack in their efforts but yet allow them to take credit for my own accomplishments with their friends and relatives. After all I was “brilliant” with extraordinary test scores and most importantly attractive, never mind poorly raised and otherwise somewhat socially maladept until I became a teenager and started socializing with adults, but they weren’t the sort of adults my family had in mind.

Too many people were born the year that I was born such that there were not only fewer opportunities for everyone but Social Security has always been a sketchy possibility. Pensions have also gone extinct largely. However, I made my money and well enough to retire young. I just married the wrong person, not having much in common with the “middle class,” and therefore turning to an exotic who turned out to be a criminal, such that I am now the poor relation once again.

However it isn’t likely that I am going to change my stripes such as to attempt to meld in with a world with which I have so little in common such as to perhaps be mistaken for either a servant or a predator myself.

Returning to the U.S. after an effective 17 year absence, it would seem that today’s septuagenarians have not yet gotten the message that the future for someone like me could be bleak, and so insensitive comments are the norm. I certainly don’t expect charity but neither do I feel inclined to cater to them. They all have family about whom they brag—a safe subject for most. I don’t know what to say except for affirmations. It’s awkward.

My future is not only unknown but is at the mercy of a host of events now beyond my control. With any luck one or more of them will bear fruit at which point I will be in the uncomfortable position of having to make some difficult choices, whether positive (in my favor) or negative. I wish there was someone who I could trust, who had similar life experiences and values, who I could turn to for advice and comfort on these matters. But there is only God, and perhaps a few gentlemen circling around but so far as yet failing to inspire more than simple pleasantries from me. I wouldn’t accept an offer of protection and ownership from either of them even if another offer was forthcoming.

I must be a fool for turning down such an offer from a fool.

The population I am actually living among now is not ripe for romantic prospects and it’s not about the age difference, given my experiences, but rather my alienation from White middle class culture, and especially the culture of their generation that romantic rebels from my past effectively escaped, even if there are not many of them around left today.

The world killed them with envy, for the most part.

In terms of safe subjects in this crowd that I live among, there are none. Politics, religion, sex, and nutrition are more my speed in terms of conversational fodder. Otherwise, I would just assume excuse myself. When it comes to the stodgy health concerns of people who have lived their lives safely and middle-of-the-road, they’ve already sworn allegiance to their doctors and so I have a hard time listening to pharmacological and nutritional regimens which I disagree with. At the same time, perhaps I could feel a vindictive glee that they’re all diminishing the quality of their lives albeit extending them through chemistry and compliance, but I don’t. What would be the point? It’s sad and depressing. I don’t wish them ill, I just don’t want to have to socialize with them beyond mere pleasantries. I don’t mesh well with the statin generation.

Nowadays, life extension through any means necessary is the new religion particularly when one has great insurance. I guess that they’re neither in any hurry to either live life to the fullest or meet their makers. They’ll probably outlive me even if they forget their own names in the process, or worse fail to garner the concern they assume they deserve from their descendants.

Will they live to see the world that their kids and grandkids are going to inherit or is reality too difficult for them to grasp? I don’t believe that I owe these strangers I live among in retirement city anything nor do I expect any sort of return on my investment of time with them. However, I don’t turn down brief socialization for the sake of a diversion in my routine. Besides, perhaps I’ll one day figure out how to navigate this world.

The idea that I ought to celebrate the accomplishments of their female relatives as some sort of family virtue astounds me. It is as if they’re all in desperate need of validation of the virtue and success of this strategy. My own professional success and then abject failure at marriage doesn’t even spark a diversion in this narrative. I guess that they just find me either unlucky or insufficiently successful, or however Feminism adherents would rationalize my situation but are too polite to say anything.

There are still a few interesting personalities here and there. As usual, it is the smokers who hold my interest. These are the ones who refused to at the least have that habit beaten out of them through shaming, guilt, fear, conformity, or, most perniciously, female dominance in their marriages and relationships. There is also the obvious distinction in mental faculties. Smokers have more of them. It’s not even a contest.

I’m all tapped out for validations on vanilla, female dominance and feminism, Leftism, Socialism, mainstream media, mainstream medicine, and Healthism.

I can hardly wait for my home to sell so that I can get out of this place. It will have to be a tobacco friendly environment next even if it ends up being a floating or nomadic one. I  have not yet figured out where that is going to be.

Here is the sort of recipe that I’ve been working on that is certain to scare away the healthy-nanny compliant sort of man:

Cholesterol City Pasta (for two, even if it is just me plus leftovers)

4 strips high-quality bacon (pasture-raised, organic, heritage, low-sugar, etc.)

1 whole clove garlic, chopped.

1/4 stick butter

1/4 cup chicken broth

1 tablespoon powdered, high quality gelatin

A little white wine

2 cans smoked oysters in olive oil

Herbs and spices (whatever I feel like, but probably chili powder, fennel seeds, cumin, and nutmeg)

Generous amount of fresh grated Parmesan cheese

2 cup high quality Italian semolina pasta noodles, fusilli, for example, as desired

Arugula, washed and dried

Sea salt

Black pepper

High quality olive oil

Key lime juice

Directions:

Cook the bacon, remove from pan, set aside until cool. Meanwhile, peel and chop garlic.

Reserve most of the bacon grease for something else.

Roast spices (except nutmeg) on low heat briefly on slightly greasy pan until aroma emanates.

Add butter and garlic, saute until golden.

Add nutmeg.

And broth and gelatin. Cover and simmer.

Meanwhile cook pasta a minute less than recommended, according to directions.

Crumble the bacon into a bowl.

Line a broad, flat bowl with arugula.

Open the cans of oysters.

Just before the pasta is done, splash a little wine in the sauce.

Drain the pasta, rinse well, and then toss in the pan with the sauce with oysters, olive oil, salt, and pepper. Cover and let simmer for about a minute.

Taste for doneness and then scoop onto arugula and sprinkle with bacon crumbs, a splash of lime juice, and grated cheese.

 

 

 

 

 

6 thoughts on “Respect For One’s Elders

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  2. C’mon man, the future is uncertain for every living thing. We’re all at the mercy of events beyond our control. Survival is the only game in town, it must be played in earnest without emotion or self pity.

    Keep your eye on the ball, never give up and don’t look beyond yourself for help. Tough breaks and failure are the necessary crucible of success.

    Fire burns within every soul, a valuable servant or a horrible master. Comforting or consuming. Must be tended often with great reverence and care. The stars are fire, we are stardust.

  3. Hmm, the recipe looks good. However, I can’t recollect ever having seen tins of smoked oysters on the supermarket shelves here in Greece. We do however have the best olive oil in the world – dark green and peppery, it’s good enough to eat just by dipping good bread in it, perhaps with a little salt and lemon juice.

    I can empathise with your thoughts on life, albeit from a male perspective. By all conventional yardsticks, my life has been an utter failure, mostly due to my itinerant nature and my refusal to conform to the acceptable norms. And yet, having said that, I’ve enjoyed my life immensely, seen and done much more than most and now find myself living on a beautiful Greek island. So success is a very subjective concept. And at approaching 67, I’m still making plans to further enhance my life.

    Marriage is an odd one. I think most marriages are doomed to failure, because as we traverse the travails of life, our needs and desires change, and it really isn’t terribly likely that our partners will go through the same changes. I’m on my third wife now (coincidentally more than twenty years my junior and exotic to boot, and if it’s any consolation, my last divorce left me virtually penniless too), and whatever happens, she will be the last, I think. Part of my aforementioned plans involve creating a small money generating business in SE Asia where she comes from, with a view to spending the European winter there and the summer here. Whether or not my plans come to fruition remains to be seen! But I’m a ‘glass half full’ person, always have been, so of course I’m optimistic. 🙂

    Not sure about the nutmeg, though. It might work. I’m assuming arugula is some sort of lettuce?

    Totally agree about smokers being the best company. It’s one of the reasons I like living here. Nearly everyone smokes. Everywhere. Bars, restaurants, wherever. No frowns, no wrinkled noses, no silly hand waving. I just can’t be doing with all that self-righteous shit. And why should I? If my smoking offends them they can fuck off somewhere they can’t see me.

    Good luck with the house sale. You should check Greece out. I’ve been here 14 years now, and I love it. Very relaxed and laid back.

    • I had a college friend who was as adventurous as I was who spent a Summer as a B girl in Greece. That’s one way to meet men. That was a long time ago. She sure had some stories.

      Any openings for a B girl of a certain age in your neighborhood? Maybe my ship will come in and I’ll be able to travel again one day. Could happen. Haven’t lost hope. Of course, I’ll probably throw it all away…again…for love. Can you still get away with smoking in Greece? That’s a bonus.

      I prefer men older but it is slim pickings when it comes to those who haven’t been destroyed by the toxic U.S. environment and therefore I am forced to reevaluate younger men, with hopefully some world experience. Without it, if I feel that I am the world wiser one, I just lose interest. It’s just how it is.

      Whereas if I had an ounce of “cougar” in me, suddenly my choices would quadruple, at least.

      I love Greek olive oil!

      Arugula is a bitter mustard green. The nutmeg mellows it out nicely. Nutmeg on cooked spinach also works well. It’s a secret ingredient in many Italian recipes with spinach.

      If the nutmeg is roasted a little then it adds extra smokey flavor, but that is overkill if the oysters are already smoked. Any smoked seafood will work in this dish, or unsmoked. It’s a very forgiving recipe with ingredients I usually keep around.

      You sound like you’re having fun and that’s wonderful. I think that having an age differential helps keep the relationship exciting and reinforces the power dynamic.

      The young PUA’s are figuring out that in complete contradiction with Feminist rhetoric, women actually do prefer their men wiser, more powerful, and more in control of the relationship. It is a rebellious act to defy the Feminists and that also adds to the excitement.

      Best of luck with your business venture, should you and your lady find yourself connecting in Miami, let’s all have a smoke. Cheers.

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