I am writing to you from a blog that is flagged as “Mature Content,” but you’re 22 and perhaps believe that you know everything about the world. For example, perhaps you’ve learned of the concept of “six degrees of separation”. By a weird twist of fate it so happens there are fewer than six steps between us; therefore, perhaps you will read this, if not today then some other day.
I sympathize and empathize with you. You and I will always be “different” from most people. I’ve sought out other people who are “different” and that has had mixed results. It turns out that celebrity is not all ponies and rainbows although it may feel that way at the time.
Most people are right-handed, but some people are left-handed. For some reason, a lot of people who I have been close to and who have been close to me are left-handed. I’m ambidextrous.
I think it is important that those of us moving against the tide have to be careful with children. It is very dangerous to go against the tide but adults can handle it better than kids. Some people, of course, never grow up. Ideally, however, we each grow up and traverse through various human milestones while discovering that we are not alone, that we have value, and that we are all part of the human experience and part of the universe and God, however that concept may be defined for you.
Figuring out your place in the universe is going to be difficult. Sometimes it is hard to know who to trust and what is up and what is down. Finding out where you stand and where your place is, will be harder to do because, if everyone is standing in line, you may well be in the wrong line. However, if you confidently or purposefully go in a different direction, at least a few people may believe that you are a leader and will ask you where you’re going. Some people who shouldn’t be following you will follow you and then get angry about it because the outcome wasn’t what they expected for trusting you. It is going to be very difficult however for you to figure out who to trust because the people who you trusted the most betrayed you by removing the boundaries which protect your humanity and then artificially constructed new boundaries that are designed to protect them more than they will ever protect you.
It is unfortunate that being too passionate or angry can make it even more difficult to know who to trust because you’ll attract passionate and angry people who think that you’re a leader or an easy mark or something else that you don’t necessarily want to be. It might seem counter-intuitive but humility is never a mistake. Humility sends a message to whoever may hurt you. You can’t fake humility although many have tried. Humility is non-manipulative whereas false modesty is.
Patience, Compassion, and Watchfulness are also helpful. These traits will help you to love yourself. You have to love yourself before you can love and sometimes that first step is for someone to love you. However, until you know what love feels like, you might not recognize it. That will be a great challenge for you.
You might have to try out a whole lot of things that are too risky for most people but don’t be impatient about it. Open your heart and let the universe guide you. I believe that eventually everything works out for the best, even if it is impossible to see it from one’s unique perspective, you are a part of the whole.
While the world may feel like your oyster at your young age today eventually the Pied Piper will need to be paid. You might believe that the people who have watched over you and protected you all your young life will be there when the chips are down because after all they were always there for you before. You may be correct in this belief however in my experience illusionists can never be trusted to be authentic. Your life is like a fun house or house of mirrors which you navigate with a heart that is different from the hearts of other people.
I’d love to tell you that it gets easier, but it doesn’t.